no fun for me before I get to go rot at home
I am so SO PISSED OFF
You know that feeling of relief when you finally decide to slit your wrists in the bathtub and subsequent disappointment when you think of everyone it’ll upset.
Anybody who says suicide is selfish is an asshole but also 100% correct.
I hate going home
Please I don’t want to
There were people in the workout room.
I could eat OR I could bang my head on the floor until I’ve puked up what I have eaten today and honestly the latter sounds more tempting.
I was fine those two years I decided not to have close friends it was only afterward that this severe depression started setting in. Its always been there but it got so much worse once I decided to start caring about people.
If the exalted group manages to get together while I’m gone without cancelling the day before on a fucking whim I’m gonna bash my fucking head into a wall.
I wish I wasn’t so affected by such arbitrary things. Maybe I’ll go back to not having friends, it’s a lot of disappointment to deal with.
I hate going home I love my family but being around them makes me feel like shit.
Maybe I think that I’m stoic but I’m just trying to cover up the fact that I’ve embraced being passive.
Maybe that’s what being stoic is I don’t know.
I know you asked nicely but every time I look at your question I hate you.